From the Land of Mata Ayer

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, Alhamdulillah, it's already week 5 in UTP. Time really flies here, MashaAllah:) January has been a hectic month for me, with the Minggu Aluan Siswa , MMK and whatnot. The last 4-month break had been eally invigorating.  It's good to have buffer period sometimes. Trying my best to start strong and start steady. Al-Insyirah:6:)

“Aku kata “astaghfirullah” tapi hati  masih gemar akan maksiat. Aku kata “wa atubu ilaih” tapi jasad  masih melakukan dosa sama. Aku kata “wa nadimna ya Allah” tapi  kesilapan lalu masih kuulangi. Aku kata “subhanallah” tapi aku tidak mampu menghayatinya. Aku kata “alhamdulillah” tapi aku masih tidak bersyukur dengan kurniaanNya. Aku kata “Allahuakbar” tapi cintaku lebih kepada dunia. Aku kata “ma fi qalbi ghairullah” tapi masih ada ruang di hatiku untuk insan yang tidak halal. Aku kata “aku tak layak ke syurga, tapi aku tak sanggup ke nerakaMu ”  namun aku hidup di dunia seakan-akan aku kuat untuk rasa pedih api neraka. Aku kata aku ingin mendekatiMu, Namun amalku tak seiring dengan kata-kataku. Aku malu dengan sepasang mata kurniaanMu ini, Kerana air mata yang mengalir seakan-akan sia-sia. Aku malu dengan tangan yang sudah lelah mengelap air mata, Kerana tingkah laku pemiliknya ini...

Life is unpredictable, right? Supposedly yesterday (Thursday), I got a JPJ driving test and a Workshop at SMK Derma (beloved alma mater, ewah) and both were scheduled to be conducted in the morning.  But Alhamdulillah, during our last meeting on Wednesday, we were informed that the programme will be conducted on the evening as per requested by the Principal.  Yup, the duration is getting shorter and many slots are being cut to the bare minimum. Tapi apa guna young brains ni kalau tak diuji? So we discussed and tried to come up with the best solution. So the next day I went to the driving test and Alhamdulillah I passed^^ (last week I flunked the 2nd part XD Around 11 I rushed to school and met my teammates. Around 2.30 petang baru program boleh mula sebab technical delay and dewan masih occupied. I won't comment on the participants, but I really appreciate the efforts done by my teammates. For a team of 10 to handle 40++ participants including technicals, it's qui...

*Inspired by Eminem's "Lose Yourself" If you had one shot, One opportunity, Your one moment, To seize everything you've always wanted, Your moment with Allah, Would you capture it, Or just let it slip? Every moment in Ramadan is equally holy, From dawn to dusk, From morn to midnight. It's like sunlight to the heart, It's like being one with your loved one and never ever wanting to be apart. It's like inhaling the crisp and clean breeze in the morning, It's like a flower nourished by water.  We feel the intense hunger from not eating, But we feel stronger from fasting. We feel sleepy from reading the Quran, But through contemplating its meanings, the holes in our souls are filled with Iman. We are no saints as we have sinned. It's time to through away your old hearts,  Ask Allah for a new one. Seek forgiveness like someone drowning gasping for air, Like a child crying, mourning, asking for his mom, Like a slave burnin...

Stumbled upon this sketch yesterday. Yup, undeniably a bit racist, but it somehow triggers my currently-in-holiday-mood brain. Mungkin ada benarnya, apa yang dilukis. Tapi mungkin pelukis itu lupa untuk menambah di bahagian sebelah kanan :                                                                 Ponteng sekolah Buang anak Seks luar nikah Buat video couple entah apa-apa Hisap dadah Hidu gam Judi, makan pil kuda Merogol atau dirogol and the list goes on.. Saya assume pelukis itu lupa sebab banyak sangat, ataupun tak cukup space..haha Berbalik kepada topik asal, sebenarnya memang tak perlu dinafikan keruntuhan akhlak anak-anak Melayu Islam sekarang.  Tak perlu nak berbalah, kita masuk Islam bukan sebab Melayu, tetapi sebab hidayah yang diberikan oleh Allah.  Bukak mata luas sikit, ramai ...

Assalamualaikum, currently in my 4-months break. Cuti yang paling panjang setelah 5 semester straight di UTP.  Memang best duduk rumah, makan sedap, tidur cukup^^ Dan keselesaan itu juga ujian, dekat rumah ni lagi mencabar nak jaga mutabaah.  Sebab apa??..Malas..dush But I'm trying my best to utilize this long-break instead of menternak lemak & membina badan..haha Sepanjang 19 tahun hidup ini, I've done reading hundreds of novels. Tulisan Ramlee Awang Mursyid, boleh kata 85% semua dah khatam. Hatiku di Harajuku, Cinta Sufi, Sunan Musafir.. You name it, i've read those during my school years. Tapi aku tak layan novel jiwang..cannot go Novel bahasa Inggeris?  Lagi banyakkk James Rollins, Dean Koontz, Kim Edwards, Enid Blyton, Haruki Murakami. I even finished up reading Harry Potter from book 1 until 6 in just a couple of months masa form 5 (agaknya kalau ada sampai novel ke 20 pun aku baca).  But I only got the opportunity to read the biography of ...

Terdapat hanya 15 minit lagi sebelum masuk waktu Solat Isyak. Dia segera mengambil wudhu dan melaksanakan Solat Maghrib. Lambat, tapi pada anggapannya asalkan dia bersolat. Dia mula membaca doa dan mula bersujud dan kekal seperti itu buat sementara waktu. Dia telah bekerja sepanjang hari dan dia berasa letih, sangat letih. Dia tiba-tiba terbangun kerana terdengar bunyi bising dan jeritan manusia.  Dia memandang sekeliling. Dia berpeluh semahu-mahunya. Dia memandang sekeliling sekali lagi kerana tidak percaya. Ianya sangat sesak. Setiap tempat yang dia pandang telah dipenuhi dengan orang ramai. Beberapa berdiri kaku melihat sekeliling, ada yang berjalan mundar-mandir dan ada yang berlutut dengan tangan mereka menutup wajah mereka hanya menunggu seperti dalam ketakutan. Dia ketakutan dan berasa bimbang kerana akhirnya dia sedar di mana dia berada Jatungnya hampir pecah kerana debaran yang sangat kuat. Ianya adalah hari kiamat! Sewaktu dia masih hidup, dia telah ...