From the Land of Mata Ayer

I might have been a bit too hasty,  I told a person that I want to know him (in plain text). Trying to make this as unobtrusive as possible, it turns out the message was dismissed. Sorry, might have crossed a grey area over there. I bet my future self will laugh this off..haha. Syiqin, sabar sikit boleh tak? Sometimes a person / occasion / job position etc seems like it's crafted specifically for us. A possibility. It's just an intuition, it might or might not work. A 50-50 chance, a flip of a coin. I think I may have exhausted all permissible and legal means of finding a potential partner for now. Not really in a hurry, but I have to admit, I need the companionship. Now, it's time to let God. Let time be the borrowed scenery. Let time tells the story.

The term 'ambitious' was mentioned at least two times this week. I found it amusing that it came out in different occasions. The first one was during a casual conversation with a colleague, a fellow postgraduate. We were talking about marriage. She is married for almost 6 years, with 3 children and another one on the way. I found her to be a sister-like figure, although we are just 1 year apart. Clearly, she has more experience on marriage than me. So we came to the point which I mentioned that my previous marriage arrangement didn't work out because after leaving university, we realized that we want different things. And those differences formed a gap far too big to be compromised that it is irreconcilable. My friend then came out with a response: "perhaps it is because of your ambitions? For me it was easier because I got married young, I just follow his plans." I have no words to continue the conversation. She intended well, I know that. But the realizati...