From the Land of Mata Ayer

Bismillah, I ended 2015 with lots of rushing, here and there. Going places while attending programs, trying my best to enjoy every step of the way. However, until the 20th day of year 2016, it felt a bit aimless. I didn't actually have a proper mission or objective to kickstart this year. You know me, I'm the ambitious one, always competing for something. Even my mom said that I won't even give way to my lil' brother (when we're small, of course)..hehe Until yesterday, I received a news that one of my senior was struck with a misfortune. Her house was burnt down to the ground due to short circuit and resulted in a total loss. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun. My dad used to tell me this, "in comparing with others, sometimes (or most of the times), you need to see those who are needy than you, those who don't really have".  If you watch the news yesterday, there's one story about a girl who lose both of her legs in an accident. ...

Coming in terms with it, I realized that I wasn't ready. The act of making me wait for 16 weeks w/o reason is unacceptable. Yet I'm searching for the wisdom that lies behind it. A good friend used to ask " How can you bear with it? , you don't even look sad" I'm not sure how I should react, plus the maintained "cool" facade that I always got had made me seemed unwavered by his gesture. I should cry Maybe I should For this seemingly strong iron lady does have her softer, weaker side. It's ok This week has been a ride of tasks/meetings. Lot's of it. As if Allah is telling me to stop thinking about it for a while. Yeah, I got tonnes of things to do. :D Need to put on my cape and save the city of Gotham sometimes ~ About death My friend's dad passed away last weekend. It was so sudden, yet she managed to spend 2 days by his side, Alhamdulillah. She is strong, stronger than me. Stay strong Azfar, for Allah never burdened us mor...

Okay, I know Wednesday is practically over.  But come on, it's my blog:) I'm still reaching , searching for my diminished motivation...hmmm Just be strong, time will wash all regrets, just the way the tide bathes the sand, erasing those marks, slowly, pain-freely

Assalamualaikuum This is my 4th month in UTP, Alhamdulillah and of course we're now in the  EXAM WEEK!! (arrrgggghhhhhhh, how scary is that? Due to some unexplained reason why my creative writing part of brain become dorman  and just won't work, I believe my blog is now bersawang tahap apa entah..haha Petronas will be out this Monday, only God knows how scared I am,  takut tunggu result? euphoria nak balik Perlis? excited nak habiskan exam? all of this mixed in my body in series (or maybe parallel?) of mumble jumble cross-links. My routine for exam week : Morning : Jog/ maybe a walk at the Oval park.  Menikmati keindahan Toronto :D Breakfast at anyplace near.  Yang pasti bukan V6 laa..(ko giler?) Study dalam bilik/ IRC (yang IMBA)..It needs a lot of courage to study in this environment..haha Usually skip lunch Evening : a walk again at Oval Park + Maghrib kat An-Nur + dinner + Isya' di surau/bilik and here goes my day Simple, yet i'...

Dan biarkan takdir berbicara,  Mengalun merdu bersyair lagu, Dan biarkan aku bungkam sendiri, Meratap segala melankolik sepi, Dan takdir terus galak bercerita, Dalam linangan air matanya, Atau tawanya yang mesra, Lantunan suaranya nyaring menerpa, Menembusi segenap emosi nurani, Biar ceritanya kisah cinta, Biar kisahnya hanya enigma, Biar yang terdengar hanya suara, Rintihannya, Tangisnya, Sendunya, Tawanya, Rindunya, Bait-bait itu dilafaz penuh makna.. Dan biarkan takdir itu terus berbicara, Kerna ia tak mungkin kusanggah, Mungkin halanya kan berubah wajah, Namun siapa mengerti? Percaturan Ilahi.. Dan kupohon kekuatan, Dalam usaha mencari konklusi, Mengejar sebuah solusi...... ~syiqin~ 14 Apr 2010

Kadangkala kita terlalu asyik dengan urusan seharian, terlalu sibuk mengejar masa, detik, saat dan yang sewaktu dengannya sehingga kita terlepas banyak perkara lain.. Kadangkala, perkara yang kita anggap tak signifikan sebenarnya mampu memberi kebahagiaan, membuka satu sinar kegembiraan,menghilangkan kegalauan.. Contohnya, Berkomplot buat surprise party ..XD Melihat reaksi Birthday Gurl dengan riak muka yg bercampur -baur.. Mintak maaf, mintak ampun Kak Tyra ye..Selamat 19!May Allah bless you..<3 Capture snapshots (yg agak ridiculous) dengan kengkawan..Kadang2, masa org tengah kalut baru seronok ambil gambar..=.=" Yang 1 lagi.. Tengok gambar little sis masa kecil2 ..Comel sungguh.. Ni lagi 1.. Waktu balik sekolah, tengok awan berarak di langit .. Rasa tenang sangat.. Segala masalah dan ke'tension'an yg bersarang dalam kepala trus hilang.. Main anak orang ..huhu I luv kids<3 Baby ni, wat iklan Johnson n johnson pun jadi... Tembamnyeerr^_^ 1 more thing, saya ...

Salam~ Petang tadi sempat singgah di Pesta Buku Perlis di depan Perpustakaan Awam.. Not a really grand event, but the price of the books are quite affordable.. So, I decided to buy a novel Rindu dan Air Mata Di Ktzi'ot by Ashadi Zain and Mohd. Dat Molok.. Here's the synopsis: Ibrahim Pasha yang tika dewasanya, dijemput pula hatinya kepada seorang gadis Yahudi, di Ktzi’ot, Anastasya Yenti, meski berlainan agama, hati mereka tetap menyatu, sehinggalah pada satu saat sesuatu terjadi di Ktzi’ot, tanah Palestin yang sering bermandi darah. Pasha perlu memilih antara cinta dan negara. When ur love and your country were put at a stake, which one would you choose???

Dalam kesibukan planning kem orientasi untuk PPIM, terjumpalah beberapa material yg berjaya membuatkan aku terkedu seketika... Isteri cerdik yang solehah  Penyejuk mata penawar hati penajam fikiran  Di rumah dia isteri di jalanan kawan  Di waktu kita buntu  Dia penunjuk jalan  Pandangan kita diperteguhkan  Menjadikan kita tetap pendirian  Ilmu yang diberi dapat disimpan  Kita lupa dia mengingatkan  Nasihat kita dijadikan pakaian  Silap kita dia betulkan  Penghibur diwaktu kesunyian  Terasa ramai bila bersamanya  Dia umpama tongkat sibuta  Bila tiada satu kehilangan  Dia ibarat simpanan ilmu  Semoga kekal untuk diwariskan  Isteri cerdik yang solehah  Penyejuk mata penawar hati penajam fikiran  Di rumah dia isteri di jalanan kawan  Di waktu kita buntu  Dia penunjuk jalan  Kekadang terpunduk ku sendirian, mestikah kita ada couple time2 ni?? Macam bahagia gila ja mereka2 di l...

RESOLUTION Maintain my grades..( kalau bleh upgrade lagi) Martabatkan Badan Pengawas SMK Derma! Majukan Pergerakan Puteri Islam SMKD (insyaAllah sbb Cgu Jesma dah join dgn Ustazah Noraini) Lebih fokus dalam kelas..( sah kna bawak Halls tiap2 ari) Kurangkan keluar n tidow dalam kelas (tapi kalau x berdaya nak wat camna kan? =.=") Sempurnakan nota2 dan homework2 yg cgu bagi...( sbb b4 this slalu tertunda..busy sgtt..Ish2~.~) Jangan Tinggal Tuisyen NO Couple2 !OK? Jangan emo sangat... Less time Facebook-ing ang YM-ing .. LOOKING FORWARD TO.... meeting new friends.. more camps, maybe? Pertandingan Bahas Ala Parlimen.. (one of the things that made me cried last year..huhu) Kem Orientasi Pergerakan Puteri Islam SMKD Yg 1st!!! Karnival KPJ/ Hari Anti Dadah.. Pesta Pantun Kuiz Kepenggunaan ...DERMA bolehh!! NILAM .. kena teruskan jugakkk.. “Ya Allah ya tuhanku, bersempena dgn tahun baru ini, aku memanjatkan kesyukuranku ke atas segala nikmat kurniaa...

Well, there's another 1 hour and 13 minutes before our beloved 2009 leave us to a whole fresh start of 2010..Fuhh..What a year 2009 had been.. Semuanya ada.. Lengkap.. Tiada kompromi!!! From tears to laugh to excitement and frustration . ..Everything is here..Nontheless..Especially buat Ain,Wawa,Gha n Yana..My 4 Bestie..Taun ni ktaorg paling banyak mengalirkan air mata.. Paling banyak drama.. N paling banyak kontroversi..Ngee~~ But thats the truth.. Tapi taun ni juga laa yang paling banyak surprise ..From the start, straight to the end..X habis2 kejutan..ada yg menggembirakan, dan ada juga yg menggetarkan emosi..^^, Di DERMA a.k.a DCS(Derma Cluster School) , cgu2 datang bersilih ganti..Ada yang datang dan ada yang pergi.. Dalam Prefect's Board itu sendiri, banyak sgt kenangan..Especially time buat tugasan, dari Hari Maulidur Rasul sampailah Sambutan Hari Guru dan Hari Kualiti..Setiap event ada ceritanya yg tersendiri.. So, anticipating this upcoming 2010, lets pr...

Trying to fill my school holiday,  I did various things just to ensure that every second wasn't wasted.. One of the best is the novel marathon!! Hehe..Org dah abis PMR la katakan... 1st of all, Your Heart Belongs To Me by Dean Koontz.. The story is interesting..Tp ending dya ada kurang best laa.. Btw, it's still worth buying.. Next, P.S I Love You by Cecilia Ahern.. Crita kuar lama dah.. Sarah pun dah puas pujuk suruh baca.. Akhirnya seru dtg jugak untuk membacanya..hihi What an inspirational book.. Wish that I am Holly.. After that, Omerta by Mario Puzo.. Buku ni pown dah out laaaamaaa dulu.. Nasyrul berkali2 mengatakan buku ni besh.. In the end sya baca jugak.. Dan mmg terbukti sgt menarik.. Let's get deep into the Mafioso world... Next project, The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold.. Bestseller nih.. The intro is interesting.. Selamilah perasaan seorg gadis yg mati dibunuh melihat keluarganya  bangkit dari pilu akibat kehilangannya.. Another book, Tu...

F riendship  is a quiet walk in the park with the one you trust.       L ove   is when you feel like you are the only two around. F riendship  is when they gaze into your eyes and you know they care.       L ove  is when they gaze into your eyes and it warms your heart. F riendship  is being close even when you are far apart.        L ove  is when you can still feel their hand on your heart when they are not near. F riendship  is hoping that they experience the very best.        L ove   is when you bring them the very best. F riendship   occupies your mind.        L ove  occupies your soul. F riendship  is knowing that you will always try to be there when in need.        L ove  is when you will give up everything to be at their side. F riendship  is...

Sedar x sedar, Syawal pun dah nak abis....Tapi ape - ape pun, sepuluh jari disusun memohon kemaafan dari keluarga, guru - guru dan teman - teman...Inilah jadinya bila peksa 2 minggu lepas raya...Raya, raya jugak, study, study jugak...Bak kata Cikgu Zaiton... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!! Malam raya...Sepupu2 ku yang hyper....Pukul 12 x tido2 lagi... Pagi 1 Syawal yang indah...Masturina yg cute dgn baju rayenya... Generasi2 muda...Chewaah.. Gaya org yg x ckup tido sbb study pd mlm raya.. Ayahanda dan Bonda.. Nenda Ku Halijah... Inilah aksi kanak - kanak ribena... Sekali lagi  dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin...