Cold Feet
Bismillah,
I'm back in Malaysia after a soulful journey in Taiwan. It does irks me sometimes when Malaysians (in general) could not stop bickering over petty issues. We just kinda move from one small problem to another. Let's hope that it does not turn into a vicious cycle.
Have we been too invested in politiking? To the point that we overlook other core issues that remain unsolved until now. I never expect a magic pill or a one-shot all-savers solution, it's just that, have we ever reflect which direction we are going, backwards or forward? upwards or downwards? On the contrary, I miss Taiwan's vibe. The cities are busy, but peaceful, crowded, yet syncs in harmony.
Ok, back to the point. I am due to register for my PhD in 2 weeks insyaAllah. This was after 2 times of postponement. Once was in March when I got accepted for the YSEALI Academic Fellowship, and another one was in July for my summer school. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm taking the right decision to not start my studies rightaway. Yet a lot happened in those new places. I am glad to be there, Alhamdulillah.
2019 has been kind of a gap year, my principles was tested a lot, I made new friends, I found new interests. Of course, it is soul searching along the way.
I have to admit that I'm getting a bit of cold feet to think that I'm going to spend 3 years of my lifetime for this journey. Time is a non-renewable commodity, yet learning process takes time. I need to work hard for it. Since my master's thesis was in food security, I have been quite comfortable in food security research, so charting a different course in energy is a swerve out of my comfort zone. Pray for me!
I'm back in Malaysia after a soulful journey in Taiwan. It does irks me sometimes when Malaysians (in general) could not stop bickering over petty issues. We just kinda move from one small problem to another. Let's hope that it does not turn into a vicious cycle.
Have we been too invested in politiking? To the point that we overlook other core issues that remain unsolved until now. I never expect a magic pill or a one-shot all-savers solution, it's just that, have we ever reflect which direction we are going, backwards or forward? upwards or downwards? On the contrary, I miss Taiwan's vibe. The cities are busy, but peaceful, crowded, yet syncs in harmony.
Ok, back to the point. I am due to register for my PhD in 2 weeks insyaAllah. This was after 2 times of postponement. Once was in March when I got accepted for the YSEALI Academic Fellowship, and another one was in July for my summer school. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm taking the right decision to not start my studies rightaway. Yet a lot happened in those new places. I am glad to be there, Alhamdulillah.
2019 has been kind of a gap year, my principles was tested a lot, I made new friends, I found new interests. Of course, it is soul searching along the way.
I have to admit that I'm getting a bit of cold feet to think that I'm going to spend 3 years of my lifetime for this journey. Time is a non-renewable commodity, yet learning process takes time. I need to work hard for it. Since my master's thesis was in food security, I have been quite comfortable in food security research, so charting a different course in energy is a swerve out of my comfort zone. Pray for me!
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