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Duhai Adinda

Duhai adinda,
Aku faham gusarmu,
Ditinggal seorang,
Dibiar berjuang,
Sepi kamu sendiri.

Maafkan aku, kekandamu.
Kerana tiada di sisi,
Aku juga pernah melalui,
Sepertinya tangis ini berbekas lagi,

Jalan yang kita pilih ini,
Tiada manusia yang menjamin,
Melainkan dia yang Esa,
Yang Maha Hidup,
Yang Maha Mendengar,

Tempat mencurahkan segala kesal,
Limpahan perasaan,
Doa yang tiada bertepian.
Disebalik esak tangis di penghujung malam,

Menjadi pemimpin itu bukan mudah,
Apatah lagi,
Kita ini Hawa',

Kamu kuat, adinda,
Senyumlah,
Teruskan bersinar,
Mungkin kita tidak akan lama bersama,
Medan di luar menggamit masa,
Teguhkan dirimu,
Jangan gugur,
Jangan undur.


V5J (2029, 19 Mei 2016)


He Knows

There's just a couple of days before my Senior Year kickstarts.  Haven't really brush off the internship bug, I found my HSE colleague amiss.  Despite the high living cost, I kinda miss the simplicity of living there, as an intern.  It is peaceful there and the idea of being able to make mistakes and to learn from mistakes, is just intriguing.
Not really sure whether I'm just overthinking or it's the habit inside, I keep seeking for my purpose of living.  Yes, Allah has stated in Az-Zaariyat about our role as a caliph and in another verse, as an abid . It's there, clearly written.
But as a typical human, I just can't help but to keep seeking the reasoning of living, to answer these unanswerable questions.
Am I doing the right thing? What the future has in store for me? Have I been a good daughter? Can I make it till graduation? Can I survive after graduation? What can I do more? Have I impacted the society I'm living in?
and the list goes on.
This also includes the sh…